Friday, May 15, 2026

Being escorted out of Fenway


A young Dess Dermondy is being escorted out of Fenway Park, Boston, home of the Boston Red Sox. I was with a dozen or so high school friends on opening day. We caused quite a ruckus in the bleacher seat section of the park. They were the cheapest seats. The wetness on my left arm and leg is from beer that was being thrown at the cops as they made their way up to our seats to cool things down. A half dozen or so friends ended up spending the night in Boston's jail. Back in those days, if you gave a cop a hard time, you would later catch a beating in jail. As you can see in this photo, I’m keeping my mouth shut.

Tuesday, May 12, 2026

Manhattan

 Ok, so my goal in life is end up living in Manhattan. Why? Because of history. History is attractive. Because of the people who live there. The people who live there consider it a community and I would like to be apart of that community and history. There are other reasons but I can't disclose until I live there. It just a goal in my life to be loved by Manhattan. I would like to also document the beauty through photography. It's just a goal for me to end up in Manhattan. It's where I want to die...

Saturday, May 9, 2026

what horse are you with my friend

 when the horse lies with you...it's time go. There's no separation . skip take a look skip. Where will i ever belong besides Manhattan 

Saturday, May 2, 2026

Are you reading your future

From a few perspectives:

Psychologically:
Often it’s the brain recognizing patterns before conscious awareness catches up. Your mind is constantly processing tiny details — routines, behaviors, environmental cues — and sometimes it predicts what’s coming next so accurately that it feels like you “saw the future.”

This can show up as:

  • Déjà vu — a strange sense that you’ve already lived this moment
  • Strong intuition about what someone will say or do
  • Dreams that seem to later “come true”
  • A sudden certainty about an outcome

Usually, this is your brain making rapid unconscious predictions based on memory and pattern recognition.

Philosophically:
This gets deeper. Some philosophers would ask whether what you’re “seeing” is actually the future, or whether time is less linear than we experience it.

For example:

  • Some views suggest all moments of time may already exist, and consciousness just moves through them.
  • Others argue the future is constantly being created by present choices, so “seeing” it might really be sensing probable outcomes.

Think of it like standing at the top of a hill watching a river. You can often predict where the water will flow because of the terrain. That doesn’t mean you’re seeing the future in a supernatural sense — you’re perceiving the structure shaping what comes next.

In daily life:
If this happens occasionally, it’s often just heightened awareness.

If it’s frequent and unsettling, it can sometimes happen during periods of:

  • Stress
  • Sleep disruption
  • Anxiety
  • Intense focus
  • Emotional overload

Those states can change how memory and perception sync up, making moments feel strangely pre-lived.